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Laura Mazzotta: Welcome back to the Freedom Frequency series. We are on Episode 8 now. And today we're going to talk about freedom for our inner child, which kind of crosses over with this freedom of receiving. And this came forward from a conversation Anna and I were having about really this freedom to
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Laura Mazzotta: let your inner child just feel right like to just be like I'm having a tantrum, and I'm letting it all out. And I might be saying and feeling things that are very socially inappropriate, like, I want to fucking punch you in the face. I want to kill you like whatever it is, your inner child is saying.
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Laura Mazzotta: when it is having a tantrum, it's like, can you offer your inner child the space and freedom to be to feel fully without bringing fear judgment or immediate refinement to we don't say those things, or Oh, that's scary or like, see it for what it is like. Don't attach to the content and just be like, yeah, baby, I'm here for all of you. Let it all out because I know who you are.
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Laura Mazzotta: I know your soul. I know the heart of you, and I know right now you just need to to be.
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Ana Jones: yeah. So I I was thinking about how strong I wanted to come in. And just, you know, be and I think I am. Just gonna lay this. Lay this down
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Ana Jones: every time I have a 1 off client call, or every time I meet someone. And you know we're in this conversation. I always like to tell them, you know. I don't know if I'm going to see you again, and so I need you to know something if you have, and maybe we've talked. Maybe I've said this before another another one of our our episodes. But I think it's this is you can never repeat this too much.
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Ana Jones: If you have thoughts of just disappearing from the face of this planet, from the face of this Earth, it is normal.
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Laura Mazzotta: Yup!
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Ana Jones: Get to meet a person who hasn't had that thought. And what that means is literally your brain is going through like problem solving. It's like
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Ana Jones: I'm going through so much pain I'm going through. I'm being stretched too much right? This is where, like the spiritual and the ego kind of
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Ana Jones: are clashing a little bit. And because I'm being so stretched because I'm being, I'm moving through this expansion and so big. And it's so intense. The ego's like, let's just fucking peace out, man like this sucks. What's my purpose? What the fuck am I even doing on this planet? All these things right? And so let's just bounce. I just want to disappear. I don't want to be here anymore.
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Ana Jones: That doesn't mean that you have to act on act on it. Actually, I don't think we should act on like any of our feelings, any of our thoughts when they are like coming in. Like, you know, waterfall
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Ana Jones: type of situation. And so I think it's just a very natural thing to go through that. And when you just recognize and you know that it's a natural thing like, Oh, my brain is trying to solve a problem. You can know right? Like, this is where I'm at right now. I'm just going to instead of resist.
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Ana Jones: Allow these feelings of frustration, despair, whatever it is to move through me, it's a lot easier than to resist and to try and be like, no. Why am I having these thoughts? I'm a good person. I'm not, you know, like fucking. Strip the labels. Man, it's okay, like I have so much.
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Ana Jones: It's so much more complex than I'm good or I'm bad, right? It's like you are. And these thoughts aren't even good or bad. They just are. Thoughts are not going to be like. Ha, ha! Let me come in and disturb this bitch. It's like, no, they're just coming up, and it is what it is. So I think that that's 1 of the things that
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Ana Jones: when they come up it is really important to just see them and see what part of us is going through that process? Right? And you were saying about the inner child. So sometimes it is right. It can be different parts of us going through it. It can be the adult which
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Ana Jones: sometimes I find it's it's rare that it's the adults like the adults, just goes through the I guess, the spiritual and the energetic expansion. And obviously, you know the the maturity
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Ana Jones: that we get to embody afterwards. But it's usually that that inner child, that that little part of us that's scared, and it's like, Oh, my! Oh, my God! My whole world is over! Because I wanted carrots, and I got cherries like it can literally be that.
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Ana Jones: you know, quote unquote, simple of an example. So I I wanted to start off with.
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Ana Jones: yeah, well, and that's that's where the receiving part comes in too, right where you you also are opening up your inner child to receive, because that's what your inner child desires and needs in that moment it needs love, it needs safety. It needs holding. So if you're having those thoughts.
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Laura Mazzotta: Of, you know I don't want to be here anymore, or even if it's mild of Oh, my gosh! I mild or like I got carrots, and I wanted cherries, or whatever it doesn't matter like again, if we're not attending to the content of what is coming through. And instead, just recognizing the the trapped feeling, the helpless feeling, the frustrated feeling. Right? It's it's allowing yourself to receive on a human level and saying like, Okay, I know there's always going to be a human
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Laura Mazzotta: being that will feel honored to hold me.
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Laura Mazzotta: because, whether whether it's about me or not, other human beings like to hold other human beings right unless they're massively overwhelmed themselves. But it's like.
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Laura Mazzotta: you know, there is a human being out there, even if it's the cashier at the grocery store. If you're feeling that way like, let yourself be held, let yourself receive the energy, the touch of somebody, the words of somebody in this realm.
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Laura Mazzotta: And then I also say, if you're feeling trapped, you're trying to do too much in your mind. It's like that tension Anna was talking about. It's between the spiritual and the ego. And it's like, guess what if you're feeling defeated? Good, because that means you don't desire to be part of a battle anymore, and you're deciding to lean back from the battle and say, I am choosing not to fight. It's actually a very strong choice to say
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Laura Mazzotta: I am choosing not to fight. I'm going to choose instead to receive, not just in this realm, but also recognize that there is higher perspective here, that I'm just having trouble accessing, because my mind is in problem solving mode, because I'm in fix it mode right? And so we've all been there.
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Laura Mazzotta: We've all been there, and we're here to have that conversation and welcome you into the the knowing and the remembrance of
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Laura Mazzotta: oh, wait! That's right. I just forgot that I'm intimately resourced. I've simply needed the reminder that
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Laura Mazzotta: there's somebody out there who desires to help me, even if I don't know who that is. Right now, I simply needed the reminder that I can access a higher perspective, you know, and it's coming at that with more gentleness, even if you're angry with yourself, even if frustration is leading the way. Because this is about this, this integration of all the parts of ourselves, and recognizing, like Anna, said
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Laura Mazzotta: it, I don't know which part of you is tantruming right now. You can figure it out or not. Either way, it's like, come on, let's have a conversation. You feel trapped. You feel like you want to jump off a bridge. Come on, let's have a conversation. And again, if you can't do that, that's where allow yourself to receive.
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Ana Jones: Yeah. Yeah. And you know, I think with practice, I mean, I think we're both you and I were both pretty pretty pretty.
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Ana Jones: I don't like to use the word experts, but just pretty pro
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Ana Jones: nailing this and just holding ourselves as well. You know there is. There is sometimes, and this is something that I've gotten quite often where I start talking to myself, like you know, the younger version of me, and she wants me to hold her. She doesn't want anyone else to hold her. She wants me. And so and it's really interesting. Because then the adult me, the version that I am right now is like, no. But
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Ana Jones: why do you want me? I want to be physically held by someone else, you know, by my partner or by my friend. And so it's almost like this resistance also that we have towards
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Ana Jones: you know, towards this belief, like it has to be someone else. Right? It's great when yeah, when somebody else can hold us, and we don't have the capacity. But sometimes this little part of us will demand that it is us who does the embracing and the holding, and you know the the healing, whatever you want to call it. And and it's there that something really beautiful
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Ana Jones: happens right, because you're able to step into the space of like. It's not a hierarchy thing, but it's almost like responsibility, and it feels really cool. It feels really like Whoa like.
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Ana Jones: really I do have. I do have it in me. I do. I do get to break all these limitations and all these stories and all these things that I was told that I could and could not do, which is, you know what you and I are constantly doing, just like hacking, you know our lives so that we don't have to continue with the with this old paradigm, with this old bullshit that doesn't really serve us. So
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Ana Jones: I do believe, speaking of the inner child and the space to receive that once we address the pain, the discomfort, the whatever this little part of us is experiencing. We get to really open up and we get to really create space
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Ana Jones: so that we are able to receive. You know, before we start recording, we were talking about how you know where I was, you know, sharing with you, and you were just reflecting back to me how you know. Yes, when we when we say we want something right? We're like, Oh, this person isn't giving me this. Oh, this person isn't giving me that. It's like in reality, when that person, when we kind of lean back.
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Ana Jones: and that person starts to give to us, or whatever you know gives to us, we're like, Oh, my gosh! It's not that that person didn't want to give us. But
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Ana Jones: I it feels a lot I feel overwhelmed in like the most beautiful way, right? Because it can be, it can bring. It can bring us to tears. And it brought me to tears of just like, Oh, my gosh! Things are shifting, and I'm getting everything that I've ever wanted. Now, will it go away if I get used to it like, will it disappear right? And so this is where it's really nice to have someone to work with.
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Ana Jones: whether it's a coach, whether it's a therapist, whatever to hold you, because if you're not used to doing this, then you may just revert, you know.
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Ana Jones: into the old ways, which are really, you know, it's always a choice. But I think that there is a lot of power in working with people who can just hold space for you for lack of a better phrase and and help you expand because it does feel like you are being stretched.
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Laura Mazzotta: Yeah, I really like that, because you're talking about, you know, somebody being able to receive the reflection of themselves right? Like I can receive the reflection of myself in a relationship in a relationship with a coach or a therapist, or a mentor as well?
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Laura Mazzotta: Can I handle that right? Can I tolerate that? And I think that's why working with a professional is helpful. If you are at that place of just really spinning, spiraling, not feeling like you have the capacity, because it's exactly what you said, Anna. Ultimately the long term goal here, and the deepest need of our heart soul. Inner child is
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Laura Mazzotta: to be met by us.
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Laura Mazzotta: To be met by ourselves, to be meeting ourselves in the highest level of self love, but with that which was brilliant. What you said was about, there comes this responsibility, and that's where a lot of people want to piece out, because it's like I don't trust myself to hold that. Oh, shit! I can't take on all this responsibility, which is really I can't handle the responsibility of being all of me, because I feel like too much for myself.
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Laura Mazzotta: I feel like the purpose that's been handed to me is too big for my britches, right like. I don't know how to receive all of this. And so when you are in a relationship, whether that's a personal relationship or a professional relationship, where you are able to gradually see yourself right gradually expand that capacity while you're
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Laura Mazzotta: being held. While you're being seen and and feeling like, okay, I'm practicing this. I'm practicing what it feels like to receive myself. I'm practicing what it feels like to receive someone else. And I'm practicing taking on responsibility for the thoughts that I think, the beliefs that I have, the dreams that I have all this beautiful energy that is here that is coming to me, that I know is is going to be arriving
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Laura Mazzotta: in a flood that feels overwhelming. And so you're able to
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Laura Mazzotta: just acclimate yourself to this energetic environment is really what you're doing when you're having these conversations.
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Ana Jones: Yeah. And you said something really important about trust. And I think that is the biggest thing you know. Whenever I have people come to me. It's like I noticed that there is just this lack of trust that there is. No, there's no unwavering. There's no anchored trust, and whenever you know it's like it's like they forget.
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Ana Jones: you know, like, no matter how many times we do it sometimes like if it's not that like constant not, it doesn't have to be every day, but, like.
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Ana Jones: whenever doubt comes in, it's like that's when you go back to your trust, like I trust myself, I trust myself. I trust myself, and because your brain will tell you well, the last time I trusted you, or the last time we trusted you. Look, look where? Look at where we ended up. And so then you'll say, Yeah, that's right. I'm not trustworthy because of this quote unquote mistake. And so what I tell people is like that wasn't a mistake. That was an experience that you had to have, so that now you have the knowledge
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Ana Jones: to know if you like that or not, and then you can choose. Quote unquote, better? Right? But it's not I. Honestly, I don't believe in mistakes anymore. I feel like you know we we love to separate like success, failure, black, white, good, bad, wrong, right? And it's like, what if we're just here to have like the experience that we signed up for. And it's like, can we just take these learnings? Take these teachings
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Ana Jones: and just not make a big fucking deal out of it, you know, like fucking. Stop flagellating yourself. Stop fucking, beating yourself up for what happened like 10 years ago, you know, like people have moved on with their lives. Everybody's doing like, okay, like, it had to happen. And if you need to seek out support, do it because
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Ana Jones: there were all I mean, these things will always come. You think you're like, Oh, my gosh, I'm doing amazing! This is the way it's going to be forever. And then boom! I don't know man like a fucking full moon comes in. Somebody passes whatever. And it's like you spiral. And so
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Ana Jones: this is what I love telling people. I was like computer. Because when people are like, Oh, my God, how? And I was like, I'm I'm always okay.
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Ana Jones: I'm always like, I, this is like this, deep knowing inside me that like, no matter what.
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Ana Jones: I'm always okay, because I don't resist pain. You know. I don't resist anger. I don't resist any feeling that comes up. I even don't resent like jealousy, you know, when it comes up, when I'm like feeling something I'm like, oh, that was okay. I felt a little jealous for a moment. Oh, I felt a little envious. Oh, I felt a little this, and I don't make it mean anything right. I just come back home.
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Ana Jones: I come back home to myself. I come back home. I come back to this place of bliss. Bliss is my emotional home, which I chose for myself.
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Ana Jones: And so I think this is like a very important thing, having trust in yourself, no matter what
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Ana Jones: is like fucking, so crucial, so crucial, knowing that you're making the decisions that are going to lead you down the path where you have to walk. Whether it's ideal, quote unquote or not, it's just like that's the that's the path that you have to walk to get to where you want to go.
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Laura Mazzotta: Yeah, it's like looking at life as a giant experiment and lightening, lightening it, the energy around it. It doesn't have to be this big, heavy like, oh, analytical, you know. What does this mean about me? All of these things like it just gets to be okay. I'm going to play with this. I'm going to play with that we're going to see. Okay. I tried baking those cookies. I think they need a little bit more butter. I'm going to chuck those. I'm going to try this recipe. You know what I'm saying, and like
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Laura Mazzotta: keeping it keeping it light, because in that you can think about that with the cookies, and it's like, Oh, well, but look at all those resources I just wasted right, and I threw all of that out, and it's like, if you trust that you do live in an abundance, you know, in an abundant universe, and you have access to continued resources that you can pull on from this, that, or the other corner of your life.
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Ana Jones: Or your consciousness. Then it's like, yeah, okay, let's just try something else. Right? Like, let it be light. Let it be playful, because I do. I think we get stuck in that kind of that drudgery of old stories like you said, and if you need support moving through those fine. But it's also this is where the responsibility comes in again, where you decide.
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Laura Mazzotta: Yes, that is a part of my journey, and I am not negating it, and I have honor and respect for it at the same time that this is who I choose to be. Now, why do I keep dragging the past into the present and making it part of my current reality. Do I desire to have that part of my current reality? No, I do not
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Laura Mazzotta: desire, and I think that what you were saying, too, around really, this detachment from emotional experience where it can come in as an energy, and you acknowledge it, and you allow yourself to be present with it. But you also don't make it mean anything about. You can feel confusing when it's like, Okay, I'm coming into greater claiming and responsibility of myself, and who I am at the same time that I'm detaching
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Laura Mazzotta: from it right like I'm detaching from the content. But I'm also taking risk of like kind of what's coming up in my field at the same time that I'm taking responsibility for who I am and who I be going forward
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Laura Mazzotta: right? It's like I can honor this that's here, and I can claim responsibility for who I have decided to be. I see you, I welcome you. I'm present with you, and I also know my truth. I also know what I've chosen to trust.
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Laura Mazzotta: because sometimes it's really just that choice to trust over and over and over and over again that leads to trust. It's that practicing that we were talking about earlier. And you're going to recognize
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Laura Mazzotta: that. Yes, you are inherently, very, very trustworthy, because you've made decisions that have forwarded you on your path in a way that keeps getting more and more refined. That gives you more and more information about who you are about where you want to go.
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Ana Jones: yeah. And I mean, you know, we're we're speaking about decisions. I think it's a very important piece to also just like
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Ana Jones: which can be a little challenging sometimes, but to really just like not attached to like oh, that was a bad decision. You know that this was like something I shouldn't have done. Because if I look back, yeah, maybe there were some decisions that I shouldn't have made. But also I didn't have the maturity in any sense right to make a different decision back then.
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Ana Jones: So one of the things that I shared on my social media was, it's cruel. It's cruel to do that to yourself. It's cruel to judge yourself from the knowledge and the consciousness that you have right now right?
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Ana Jones: And look at your past self and be like, you've really fucked up, man, you should have done this and this and this because you didn't have that consciousness back. Then you didn't have that, you know, intelligence, awareness, whatever you want to call it. So I think it's just really unfair for us to look for excuses, to continue to judge ourselves just because now we think we're so fucking, you know. Yeah.
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Laura Mazzotta: The fact is right, we chose to be. We chose to be humans, right? Which means that we are here to continue unfolding into awareness of our divine nature, of our purity, all the things right. And so it's. Can you also trust
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Laura Mazzotta: the process and trust what your soul has chosen for this journey and that really what you're doing there is holding yourself to a perfectionistic standard, right? Rather than being able to honor. I didn't have the capacity. Then the Little Nugget that I was.
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Laura Mazzotta: you know, and like having compassion for that version of you, sitting down and having tea with that part of you, and just being like dude, I get it. I get where you were. Then let's come, come into a space of forgiveness for yourself around this, if you need that. And and let's recognize the choices and the energy that shifted after that, right? It's not about falling down. It's about. Do you get up
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Laura Mazzotta: right. Can can you get up or shift direction, or use that energy, that knowledge, to move into a different space? And I think that for me, the thing that's helped me the most with this is my spirituality. Because we can when we have trouble doing the things that Anna and I've been talking about here today. It's bring me to a higher perspective where I have this sensation in my body and this this peaceful centered knowing that is
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Laura Mazzotta: not necessarily attached to this lifetime, and everything that's occurred here, but is just pure love, right and pure intelligence and pure resources, and you know, pure possibility and opportunity, and just come into this space, and remember that I know, even when my human doesn't know, and the more time that I spend time in that space, the more that I
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Laura Mazzotta: have. My resilience is better. My awareness and clarity right in the moment is better. The light, it's lighter.
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Ana Jones: Yeah. And it's resilience in a very soft way, not in a resilience like you're gonna resist. And like very dramatic right? It's like you. It's like building endurance like emotional endurance. You know, it's just like, yeah, like, you get to know your emotions better. You get to be like, here's this, you know, part of me. Oh, here's this part of me, and you know
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Ana Jones: I know we we got to wrap up so I think you know, for those of us that are watching and listening. Maybe try this. I think it would be lovely if you all decided to have literally like a cup of coffee or a cup of tea, and literally like do it physically right, like. Set a cup of coffee, a cup of tea in front of you, and then one for you and like place whatever version of you needs to come forward
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Ana Jones: and have a conversation with that. It's really beautiful, and it's very emotional because you get to witness this part of yourself. You're talking to these parts of you, and it's very healing. It's very, it feels very grounded, even though it doesn't sound like it. And it just it helps you move forward.
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Ana Jones: feeling even more complete. I don't know. I don't know if I can think of a better word than like complete or wholesome, you know. So let us know if you end up doing this, this little exercise that can really fortify and strengthen the compassion with yourself. Because I think that's really what we need. That's like the vitamin that we need to move through this life.
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Laura Mazzotta: It is, and I will just add one last sentence before we close this, because what I've noticed when I do this exercise is that I'm actually more compassionate and loving towards myself than I give myself credit for. So I think that's 1 of the things you may recognize as well is some of that narrative that you think means you're not compassionate is actually just a distraction. Because when you really sit in presence with it, you're like, you know what I'm actually, very naturally compassionate and loving towards this other version of myself.
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Laura Mazzotta: So let us know what awareness comes forward for you. Thank you so much for being here. If you desire more support from either of us, please reach out to us individually. There are links in the show notes, and we will see you very, very soon. Have a beautiful day bye, for now.
