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Welcome to another episode of the se through the 5d series on the Akashic Musings podcast. Today we're talking about the energy of feeling unwanted, and the first question that comes up from spirit is: Is this feeling of being unwanted based on external cues, or is this a feeling that's coming up within yourself? Like, are you feeling rejected? Are you feeling like you aren't receiving the kind of attention and recognition you desire? And if that's the case, then I encourage you to return to the episode on it's okay to desire attention. Please do for the good of us all. But one of the things that spirit wants to bring forward is this feeling of being unwanted within, because if this is coming up for you, I guarantee it's come up for you before, in patterns and seasons and cycles. So this isn't about your circumstance or a relationship that your mind might be attaching it to. This is about your recognition that you have the ability to create your desired reality, however you want to. And we're going to talk about this from a concrete perspective as well as the 5d. So what comes forward from spirit around the concrete is taking responsibility for where you are placing your energy. If you feel that your energy is unwanted, are you pouring your energy into relationships or scenarios that you are not feeling desired? Because you're meant to be intentional about the connections and circles where you place your energy, and in those places you get to take up space. In conscious circles, you are invited and welcomed to be all of you. This might mean that some days you are talking a million miles a minute, or you are looking for feedback more than other people within that same environment, and it doesn't mean you're too much. It's welcomed. It's other people saying, "I want more. I want more of anything you have to give because there's always some richness or juice within it. And this is how we command to be wanted. We can easily go to the people in our lives and just say, "Listen, like I want to receive love right now, or I want to receive X and Y right now. I want to be seen right now. So you can identify what the want is, and you can ask for it to be filled. But either way, you're taking responsibility by either pouring energy into the circles and the connections where you feel desired, or commanding to be wanted. You're allowed to do that. In fact, that shows how much you revere and honor your own energy, saying it's okay for me to take up space and ask for this, and it's okay for you to do it too. Like we are all here for this. Let's be bold about how much we desire to be desired. So this is similar to the concept of opposite action that I used to teach as a traditional therapist within the framework of dialectical behavioral therapy, an opposite action would say: if you are feeling really depressed and you don't want to move, do the opposite thing. Just get up and move. If you feel like you really, really want to call somebody and tell them something, but you know that this is somebody that's going to shit on you or not respond in a beautiful way, then you're going to do the opposite. You're either going to call somebody else, or you're going to attend to yourself. You're going to go for a walk, right? So you're going to start just changing the behavioral system, the habit that comes along with what you're accustomed to. So if unwanted energy comes up, and you're typically shrinking back in shame, or you're typically getting in your head or not reaching out to people as much. Basically, what you're saying is, okay, I'm actually going to do not just an opposite action, but an extreme opposite action. Like I'm not just going to ask for attention. I am going to command it. I'm going to go into circles. I'm going to pour myself in and and show myself exactly what I know this is about, which is a recognition that there is more for me to receive, and I get to go get that. I get to be a go getter with that because I know it's here for me, and it's already energetically in form, and it just hasn't arrived in the 3d yet because I'm sitting over here like I'm unwanted, right? And this thread has potentially been going on in the background for a while, and you just haven't recognized it or known it or seen it because it's subconscious. There's no shame in that. We just don't necessarily see these things, and then they come to the surface. When we are at that point where it's like, okay, I am ready to claim more, I'm ready to command more, and this also comes into play in terms of not just I know that there is more for me, but I know that there is more of me to experience, and that's the other nuance that spirit wants to bring forward before we talk about the 5d piece, which is that you get to expose yourself to how much bigger your energy is than you're allowing yourself to receive, like your mission is bigger, your soul is bigger, your fervor is bigger than you may even consciously recognize at the time, so you are allowing yourself to expand your exposure to the bigness of you, and saying, "I desire more of me. I want to receive more of me. I want to sit here and breathe, or shake, or twitch, or whatever it is, to receive more of the me that is currently available. So it's clear that when you're feeling unwanted, there's already been a stretching within your energy field that indicates to you that there's more of you to receive. So sit with yourself too. Don't just bring this into an exchange with other people or in a context of relationship, but realize that there is more of you to sit with, and I recognized this recently when I had a level of space available to me that I haven't had in 20 years. 20 years, and it was a little uncomfortable. There were edges that were stretching. I'm somebody who has a ton of spaciousness in my life and who spends a ton of time being present with myself and in quiet space with myself, and this was like extended quiet space with no one else around, no responsibilities, no obligations, nothing, and it was confronting. It's always going to be because there's aspects of self that are going to come forward the longer we are in quiet space. This is why silent meditations and silent meditation retreats, especially, are fantastic, because the longer that you give yourself space, the more of you gets to feel safe and relaxed to come forward and be present with you. So this is a good thing. The twitchiness around this is a good thing because we are welcoming more of us home to ourselves, and that's the integrated wholeness that we desire to embody and that we desire to feel ease within in our lives on a day to day basis. So let's talk about the 5d piece. We talked about pouring our energy into connections and circles where we feel most desired. We talked about commanding to be wanted, and we talked about expanding our exposure, letting our edges expand to receive more of what we are that we might not have recognized. So there is a nuance here that spirit wants to bring forward in order for us to understand the 5d frequency of unwanted energy. We are being asked to recognize our ability to create our desired reality. So if we are coming into relationships or circles where we don't feel fully desired, but they are experiences that we are currently in, and we don't necessarily see changing anytime soon. We can ultimately make that choice, but we are not at that point right now. So what you get to recognize is that you have the ability to create your experience and influence the environment around you, how it operates, and how people treat you, respond to you, give to you, receive from you. So it's almost like spirit is saying to you when you have this unwanted energy, and we're meeting this in a 5d frequency. Spirits looking at you like, have you forgotten? Like, have you forgotten that you have the ability to orchestrate all of this? That you've been uniquely created and designed, and that you're creating a new pathway. In fact, unwanted energy in the 5d is evidence that a new pathway has already been created energetically, and you are being shown that it's time to take it and bring it into the 3d. This new pathway has already been created energetically, so when you're feeling unwanted energy, that's a pattern interrupt. That's a path redirect to a an energetic carving that's already happened in the universal space. It's something that's already been brought down to your energy field and carved into place by your guides. So the unwanted energy is. You being able to wake up to a degree and remember and realize, oh wait, that's right. I am creating a new pathway. I am creating a new way for other people to respond to me, to interact with what I'm putting out from my vibration, so this is going to be an extension of you sitting with yourself and expanding exposure to what you have become energetically. Because once you recognize that, you're going to feel more confident in being able to create this desired reality. So let me give you an example of this. You feel that you are not fully desired by someone in your life, or you feel rejected or dismissed by somebody in your life that you deeply love and are deeply connected to. It hurts, and you can allow yourself to feel that hurt. Let's not dismiss that, but we're also not going to get into this victim mentality of "I'm unwanted, because all that does is show you that there's a place where you don't feel full in who you are. So thank you, person, for helping me recognize where I didn't feel really, really confident in who I am, what I'm offering, and the fact that I am the source point of everything that happens in my life, that I hold a steadfast position on what I stand for, on the vibe that I desire to hold, regardless of how other people are acting within my field. That doesn't mean it won't hurt you to a degree, but you also get to say, you know what? I am wantable. I am wanted. I am intentionally created, and so is this other person. And we are in soul contract, and therefore my energy influences them, and their energy influences me. So if there is a thread of me feeling unwanted, and that is something that does not vibe well with their subconscious threads, or is not offering them something that they want and desire within this contract, I have a responsibility for that. Now, if I don't have awareness of it, you don't have awareness of it, right? But what this episode is telling you is that when you feel that unwanted energy, you get to realize, ah, okay, spirit is showing me that there is a new pathway or a new way of relating with this person that I have not yet considered, or that I have not yet capitalized on that, I have not yet put into play. So let me be present with that. Let me be present with how have I been honestly showing up in exchange with this human being? What are the thoughts, belief systems, and emotions that I have been holding or feeling while I am thinking about them, speaking about them, interacting with them, speaking to them, responding to them, meeting their needs and desires. Because I guarantee you, I know that your energy is also contributing to this. And then we say that it's unwanted energy, but it's like, okay, but where are you willing to receive the invitation to take greater responsibility for holding the vibration that you stand for, because there's room for you to extend that. So if you're somebody who likes to go with the flow and chill and have kind of a relaxed vibe, and this other person's like, okay, I like to be super organized and plan, and be very strategic about things. Where are you, number one, accommodating the other person and sacrificing your own vibe, or number two, and or number two, where are you not bringing the relaxed vibe that you stand for in your embodiment, even if you meet in the middle or meet partway, and find a way to make this considerate of both of your needs and desires, because whether or not you are following through with, okay, well, no, I'm going to be rigid about going with the flow, and then we're going to butt heads, right? It's like no, no, no, no. We're talking about a vibration. Can you bring the vibration of go with the flow, and chill and relaxed into the discussion? Because that's the kind of vibration that impacts their vibration impacts too, but yours doesn't have to be impacted by it if you decide that you know this is something you're so convicted about holding because it's best for your health, because it's best for your well-being, because it's best for. Relationships. It's best for the way that you reach success in your life. So you have to believe more in the vibration that you're holding, and the vibration that you've chosen, and that you love to feel when it feels expansive, settled, and anchored, and joyful within you, you have to be more convicted in that than you are in the outcomes of relationships, the outcomes of scenarios, and how much you're desired by somebody else. Because when you realize that your creative potential extends from your exposure to the expansion of your bigness, of your energy. Then you recognize that you are just growing in love. You're growing in divinity. You're growing in infinity. You're growing in self-love, and all that does is grow and fuel the planet, your reality included. So that's the space that you lead from. And when you come back to that remembrance, and you come back to that conviction, and you know that that is more important than any outcome and any relationship in your life, things fall into line with much greater ease because you're not fighting anything. You're not trying for something. You're not looking to fix something. You're not looking to rectify something that isn't broken. You are willing to be humble enough to be present with the soul contract that is in front of you. Hold yourself accountable for how you're showing up, and place that lens next to the lens in which you've chosen to see yourself, see the world, and operate in service of humanity and the universe at large. And I guarantee you, when you put those up next to each other, it's going to be like, ah, okay. And this is why we're in relationship, and this is why we're in the 3D, is so that we can have these things reflected to us, and we get to witness the dissonance that arrives when we experience energies like unwanted energy. So I want you to remember from this 5D conversation, which I know is very nuanced, and there's a lot of different concrete pieces as well as like mindset and vibrational shifts and even identity shifts that you're being invited to make within this, but to simplify this, the unwanted energy is really about in the 5d recognition that a new pathway has already been created energetically for you and another person, or you in a scenario in your life, or you in relationship with yourself, and so you get to recognize, ah, I'm being asked to move into the 3d implementation of this. So that could be a new boundary. That could be you showing up in a more convicted way. It could be you showing up in a much softer way. But most importantly, this is going to extend from you agreeing to receive more of what you are, because I can tell you right now, if you're listening to this podcast, you are not going to see and understand and fully receive all that you actually are on a vibrational level during this lifetime. It's just too big. It's just too intangible. There's a limited number of frequencies that we can hear and see on this plane. So when it comes to tangible interaction and understanding of ourselves and other people and this planet and the universe at large, it is so finite relative to what we're going to experience when we're in spiritual form entirely. So, humble yourself to recognizing that this unwanted energy, yes, is an invitation on a concrete level to receive more of you. But it's also a recognition of, oh my gosh! Cool. There's a new pathway here. There's a new way. I'm not stuck. I'm not stuck in being rejected. I'm not stuck in being unwanted. There's nothing wrong with me. There's nothing that needs to be fixed. There's nothing that needs to be fixed in the other person. There's no blame that has to go around here. There's simply space for leaning back and being like, "Oh, cool! There's a new way here. I'm excited to see it. Spirit, show me the new way. I'm willing to receive a new pathway and to take a stand for thy the vibration." That I meant to hold, in order for this pathway to unfold. So let me know how this feels, and I'm happy to connect with you at any time. You can email me at emergehealingandwellness at gmail.com or head over to theakashictherapist.com. Check out what events are going on right now? Book a connection call. I'd be happy to speak with you. And thanks so much for receiving this. I know this was a little bit of a longer one for the see through the 5D series, but I'm grateful that we were able to be here and receive this from Spirit. And I will talk to you very soon. Bye for now.
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