Laura 0:00
Welcome to a special edition of the Akashic Musings Podcast. I'm here with Freda Maletsky. She's an energy healer and divine light Channel, and today we are talking about endings and new beginnings and being in the void space. This was a topic that was near and dear to her heart, so I'm going to give you the stage, and you just go, sister, let us know what's on your heart.
Freda 0:20
Hi. Thank you so much for having me. Yeah, it's a true honor to be here. It's just such a treat, because I love your vibe.
Laura 0:29
Thank you.
Freda 0:31
Yeah, your energy is near and dear to my heart. I'm like, Oh, I know that frequency I can hop on that
Laura 0:37
the feeling is mutual, sister.
Freda 0:40
So, gosh, my prayer in the universe is to just say, God, work through me in a way that delights my mind, body, my spirit, my soul. I love being surprised. I love to just show up to life and say, Hey, life, what if it is getting better in ways I can't even imagine. Show me. Surprise me, surprise me. And there are periods of time where I just am in the darkness. It's like in this void where I usually am like going along and I can see the next two or three aligned action steps. And then I'll sometimes have these periods of time where I just sort of can't see that far in front of me, and simultaneously, I just am trusting. I know everything is going to work out. I belong for the ride, but, man, it can be ooey and gooey, and I know, though, and I trust that everything is going to fall into place exactly as it should, and things are in the making. But yeah, sometimes, man, I just can't quite see what's coming.
Laura 1:44
And what do you do when you're in that state, like, what how do you love yourself? How do you serve yourself? How do you serve others when you're in that space?
Freda 1:54
I am practicing self love in a way where I have to remind myself to be compassionate like to myself, because I'm a real pusher. I push. I am willing to do the work, I am willing to sit in the meditation. I'm willing to do it, and when it is that sort of void space, I have to remind myself that the answers are in the silence, and then what's meant for me isn't going to pass me by. I'm not missing anything, so it's okay to sit down and just allow so then tap into my body. What does my body want to eat? What does my body want to drink? The real simple stuff. Where does it want to move? Today, a friend had just sent me a song randomly throughout the day, and I played it, and I just spontaneously started dancing, and it was like my body wanted to dance, so just allowing myself and cutting myself some slack,
Laura 2:48
I love that, because we we rush too quickly past that compassion piece and just offering ourselves space for whatever decides to arrive, like you said, the surprises and It could be an invitation to dance. And what you're saying is I'm welcoming this like I'm open for this for I'm open for the divine invitation. I'm open for the divine direction. And I love to do that too during those times. And I think that should always be the first step, honestly. And what I also do is super transmute and channel the energy that's coming up in the void, which usually involves some kind of frustration or anxiety or confusion, into service. Because what I've found is that that energy is actually a fire that's being lit underneath me that feels uncomfortable, but that is really cultivating, kind of alchemizing, and making what I'm doing as service richer. So it's like, I always say that I feel like this divine advocate, like I'm advocating for this divine voice and this divine energy and this divine mission on the planet, and so that's what it feels like, is like I'm being invited into a new level or a refined way of being a divine advocate. And when I feel that energy, it's like, this, like, yeah, like, I sit up and I'm like, Okay, I might feel like shit right now. I might feel like weird or I don't exactly know where this is going right now, but I do know my mission. I do know who I am, and I know that I'm here to express, let the divine express through me. So I'm just going to do that, even if it's kind of noisy and kind of messy and might not make sense based on other things I've recently talked about, and I find that is so strengthening and fortifying and creates more of me.
Freda 4:50
Yes, I love that. I love all of that, a place where sometimes I have to be mindful, like everything that you just said. It's so easy for me to be a divine advocate for other people, and I have to remind myself to do it for myself. I seem to hold myself to like a higher standard. We're nodding. I know you understand, but it's like, I expect the world to all be operating at 80% and I'm like, no God, I'm at 120 all the time. And sometimes I have to remind myself, like, sit down Freda, it's okay, yeah.
Laura 5:25
And that's what's so that's what's so cool, is I think that our service just just changes its flavor during those times, because I'm still serving. But you were mentioning silence, and like, you're really good at that, being able to sit in the meditation and being in the silence, and so a different kind of wisdom comes through that than when we are at 120% and going a million miles an hour, right? And it's still wisdom, and it's still impact, but it's got a little bit of a different texture and a different flavor. And I like that, because it lets us explore and feel our different textures, and it lets other people receive that and feel their own as we share them.
Freda 6:08
Yeah, yeah. When it goes everything against we're taught in the patriarchy of like our worth and value is based on our worthy our worthiness is based on all of the work that we get done and be productive and do as much as you can. It's like no slow down and take care of what are your literal needs right now, of your body. How can we serve ourselves in order to then be able to overflow and be of service to others?
Laura 6:31
Absolutely. And I heard something that was really cool today. Somebody was talking about when you feel disconnected from your purpose, and I will say you're never truly disconnected from your purpose. You just feel that way sometimes. So just a little side, but when you feel disconnected from your purpose, play Yes. And I was like, I love that, because that's what you're just talking about too. Like you got the song and you started to dance, and you're moving your body. And it's like in the play, awareness will arrive in the play. Your transformation will occur like you're moving your body. Your body is energy. Energy is moving. It is transforming. So you are going to awaken new aspects of yourself as you play. And you're going to find a lighter opening there. Yes, that doesn't feel like a forced opening that doesn't feel like, okay, well, I'm sharing my shit with the collective, even though it's transmuted, and there's really brilliant stuff coming out of this, right? Like, I also get to play and feel the light and energy for myself, which serves me, serves everyone else and and allows us to get creative.
Freda 7:40
Yes, yeah. And I'm a little bit selfish in the fact that it's like, if I'm not having fun doing it, I don't want to do it at all. Yes. Like, if it doesn't feel good and delight me.
Laura 7:51
so when you're in the void space, what feels fun like? Are you able to find fun?
Freda 7:57
The dance earlier today overwhelmed my body, and I took it and moved within. It felt beautiful, and I loved it that. And that was 10 minutes. And then there was some grief, you know, and then there was some grief to relief, so just allowing it. And then earlier, I had a cup of tea, and the cup of tea was so warm, in the perfect temperature, and I just went with that, and it was just the tea. So just being like completely in the present moment. If I if I allowed myself to get overwhelmed with what's coming in the future, or what what I thought I was doing from the past, it would be I would be going crazy, like I would be moving to fear, but in staying in the present moment, it's what is literally in front of me. And earlier, I was thinking about drawing a picture, but I didn't. So honestly, it's just being a little bit kind to myself, and I'm grateful because I've orchestrated my life in such a fashion that my calendar doesn't look so insane, that I'm doing a bunch of things that I don't want to be doing. And there's, there's opening there, which I am so privileged and grateful to be able to have. I mean, this was of design to get it to the you know, it's taken time to be able to get my calendar to look like that, but so that it isn't overwhelming me and that I have to push myself past and in through this like discomfort and do a bunch of stuff that I don't want to be doing, so just allowing it. And, yeah, it's uncomfortable. It's really uncomfortable. The whole business being a spiritual being and having God work through me, but then it's like, Yeah, but you're in 3d reality with a mortgage, and then I have it's a business. And it's kind of laughable, because under most circumstances, you just want to be down by the lake, healing people by the water or whatever, chilling hanging out in the woods, and it's like, no, this is the gift. So this is the trans it turns into this transaction thing where then we have to figure out the business of it and all of that stuff. And I definitely still in the stage of figuring out business, to be navigating those waters with clients and all of that sort of stuff, and even getting them in the first place. And the last time we had just had a chance. That the two of us together, you had talked about talking to my business, and like a lot has happened, whereas I keep gearing up to do that, but I actually haven't sunk into doing it yet. So the melding of still sitting in the void waiting to talk to the business.
Laura 10:16
Yeah, I get that. And this is the thing I love, the present moment piece, because I you can literally never go wrong with the present moment piece right as long as you are listening to those nudges and taking action on them. I also feel, and I think this is one of the reasons that certain people are drawn into spiritual business, is because we are meant to be more focused with our mission. We are meant to be more focused and accelerated with that embodiment as well. And so I think the business, obviously, people say it's like the best self, self growth tool on the planet is to be an entrepreneur, particularly a spiritual entrepreneur. And I do not disagree. I also know that particularly when we're in spiritual business, this is God saying focus like you know where you're going. And I want you to make that mission and that focus bigger than anything else, bigger than your mood, bigger than your void space, bigger than anything else, so that you're still showing up, you're still serving, you're still sharing, my word, my my service, my healing, whatever it is you're you're sharing despite how you feel. Because I think we can get so caught up in, well, I don't want to, and I don't feel like it. My God, I did that for years. And yes, we can outsource some of that. And yes, some of those things we don't follow in certain on certain days, if we're not feeling well, we always want to prioritize the self compassion first. But I also think it's really important to be like I am creating the most beautiful silver platter full of deliciousness for you spirit. And I cannot wait to deliver this to you. And I am so devoted to this creation, because our relationship is so nourishing and abundant and overflowing and exponential.
Freda 12:15
It's really beautiful. Yeah, and I feel like it's coming. I know it's coming. I just haven't, I don't quite know what it is yet. So I'm still in my first year of business. So I've been in a in business now seven months. This is my seventh month, and for this year, I wanted to try everything. So I've run a couple of retreats. I'm teaching a healing school. I'm running classes, I have a full moon women's circle. I'm writing books. I want to try it all, because I'm like, What do I like? What do I like? What do I want to do? So all of it is information. So also sinking in that void, just what is, what do I What is, even, what is delighting me? What do I want? I mean, it's all interesting. It's all in.
Laura 12:53
Can we just, can we just pause for a moment and clarify that that's not the fucking void space? Okay? This is, like, creative as fuck. Okay, that's what you're doing, like you are not in the voice space, like you're you're actually doing everything, right? You're like, you're taking divine direction, and you are playing,
Freda 13:16
yeah, definitely playing.
Laura 13:17
And you think you're in the void space, because there isn't, like, this tangible outcome
Freda 13:22
Yeah, that one, yeah.
Laura 13:24
But that doesn't mean you're in the void space. You actually know exactly what you're doing, like you're playing. You're like, this is exactly what I wanted to do. I wanted to try and print things and see, oh, like, it's like, you're going to a tasting of wedding cakes and deciding which you like
Freda 13:38
Yeah no, that's exactly right. I feel Yeah. I love the wedding cake analogy. I love that. Yeah. I think of it as the cereal aisle. I'm like, what I want? This one, this one I'm trying this. Try to try.
Laura 13:48
And this is, like your divine tasting tray. Right now, you're at, like a divine tasting. That's what you're doing. You're going to a tasting. You're not in the void. You are actually in luxury. Who goes to tastings, people who are Yeah, people the wealthier the people who are planning a luxurious event like you are in such luxury. Can you shift it into that, right? Can you embrace that? Can you feel the vibes of that like this is your year of luxurious tasting.
Freda 14:24
Oh I love that perspective shift. Oh, you're such a good cheerleader. See, I love that so good. Oh, yeah, that feels delicious. Because the thing about it is like, I've been running this school for eight months now, and I teach five days a week in the mornings, and Spirit is like, we're not doing that anymore. We don't want you doing it five days a week. So that's why it's like the void of, well, what's the next thing is what it feels like.
Laura 14:51
So like, I’m not sure you are in the curious pause there.
Freda 14:56
Oh, okay, that's good.
Laura 14:57
You are not in a void at all. Like, not even close, not even close. There's nothing stagnant. There's nothing still, right? You are in the curious pause, because you're kind of sitting there with this, like, this look on your face, like, Huh? I wonder what's coming next. Like, you know something, you know it's gonna be fun.
Freda 15:22
Oh, yeah.
Laura 15:23
And it's inquisitive. You have an inquisitive nature about you around it.
Freda 15:29
Oh, definitely, yeah. I mean, it's the the thing about it is it's probably better than what I could imagine, because, like, imagine it, if that makes sense, right?
Laura 15:38
Absolutely.
Freda 15:40
But there is a bunch of getting out of my own way, because it's easy, also, as an entrepreneur, to then move into like, well, what is, what's coming next?
Laura 15:48
Absolutely, absolutely,
Freda 15:50
you know, but that's, that's the human part. Because I am a human.
Laura 15:55
you are a human. We are humans, and that's the duality. And we're impatient. Oh, yeah, we're very impatient, and we want those, those tangible results of what we can witness. And the fact is, you could take any of these things that you've tasted and go with it, you could take any of them and go with it and dive in and get the tangible results that you're looking for, but would it fully fulfill you, and would it feel and taste like luxury, and what you're doing is divinely curating the most delectable dish?
Freda 16:33
Yeah, yeah, and I still haven't tasted what is the thing yet?
Laura 16:38
You're not there yet. You’ll know.
Freda 16:40
you know, and learning and practicing also, I mean, like, you know, I was a divine light channel and channeling energy and doing this, I was able to do it before I started my school. But you show up and do that Monday through Friday, five days a week for, you know, seven months like, I've watched myself get better. So it's really beautiful to be in this learning space and just growing and discovering and
Laura 17:08
I think it's also about holding ourselves accountable as to what our deepest medicine is, and allowing ourselves to really deepen that and enrich that for ourselves and our own growth. So I know for me, one of the reasons that I created my flagship program is because it is it was an opportunity for me to go consistently deeper in to the Akashic records and into my practice with the Akash. It was almost like it was preventive for any kind of symptoms or or void spaces or difficulties or cycles that would come up that would kind of suck me in. So it was like an accountability that way. And it was also just, I desired to be more devotional. I desired for this to become, for myself, to become more of this, and make the practice me. And so that's what I created. And I think that it was, it can be easy to get distracted by all the shiny objects in the spiritual world and all the different things we can do with it. And so I think sometimes it's asking ourselves, what is my best medicine? And when I sat back and asked myself that I was like, it's very clearly the Akashic records. I mean, I've tried everything, and I've loved it's fun, like, I've loved it, it's felt good. It's helped me. It's all helped me, right? But then it was like, what was that one thing that was just, holy crap, game changer, and that was for me, the Akash. And so it's like, okay, that's what I'm going to choose to focus on, because I know that that is my deepest medicine. So I'm going to hold myself accountable for my deepest medicine, and invite people into learning how to do it themselves, if they're also called to that medicine.
Freda 18:47
Yeah, how long May I ask, did you sit with that to find that truth for yourself? Like, how when did you How long had you been doing the Akashic records to realize then it's like, this is the one. This is the tree like.
Laura 19:03
So I had tried, so I started out with, I became a Reiki master teacher, and I love that. And then I tried the Emotion Code and The Body Code and Theta Healing and quantum healing and tapping. And I ended up, as soon as I hit the Akashic records, I knew because, which was probably about a year, ish, maybe a little more than that, into my healing journey. And when I hit the Akash, it was like, wow, okay, I don't have any symptoms when I'm in this space. Okay, when I close the records, I have a ridiculous amount of energy. I have no idea what the hell that means yet, but I'm just going to keep doing this because something's working here. And then what I would find is I would start to kind of dip a little bit into, let's say, a flare and my chronic illness or my mood, and I would wonder what was. Going on, and I would realize it was because of my lack of consistency with the Akash, or I was being consistent, but I was being asked to go deeper into it. I was being asked to surrender further, to extend further. And so when I started realizing that, which was probably four years ago, so probably about, I don't know, a couple years or a year and a half after I'd found the Akash was when I was like, I want to get serious about this. Like, make this, this is my medicine. Like, owning this is my medicine.
Freda 20:33
That's so cool. Yeah, do you sit in the records every day? Oh, yeah, I love that's amazing. Yeah, I love it.
Laura 20:42
Yeah, every day, and it's only be and honestly, that's because I've created this, like, that's one of the reasons, is because I have a business, like, that's the thing that I'm saying. It's like, they work so beautifully together, because for me, it helped me stay accountable for showing up and doing what I might otherwise would have been like, you know, today I'm just gonna be take care of myself. I'm gonna relax and just, you know, and I laid down on myself too much, you know what I mean? Like, I laid down on myself too much because I wasn't serving me at the depth that my energy clearly desired, because I'd get a little lazy, or I'd get a little like, half assed.
Freda 21:28
Yeah, yeah, I love that, yeah. Part of the reason I wanted to do the school and do the morning meditation and do it every day was so that I would do it too, because that's how I healed myself. Was like sitting in the meditation process, sitting in the Akashic records, sitting and just working with the Divine Light, healing. And once I got to a point where the healing got better and better and better and better, you know, like, it's more and more and more. And I wasn't in physical pain. I wasn't in pain anymore. I was like, I want to keep this up. So it's very similar to what you said. And it's like, oh, now I want to meditate with other people and take that I work for me.
Laura 22:03
Yeah. And I also think that that's what's fun about being in business for ourselves, is that we get to make it whatever we want, whatever we want. So like, for a while there, when I first started my business, my business was, hey, this is what God's inviting me into right now. So I'm going to create a course on it, and we're going to do it together, and every single time, before the course would start, the Akash would, like, attune me to this, drop me everything I need. I'd be fully integrated, and then we would go hit the ground running. And that's what I did for a while. Was like I did ancestral healing, I did astral travel, I did past lives, like all these different aspects of playing in the Akash, and that was really, that was really fun for me. And then I think that it really started to just settle in to where it is now, and has been for a while, because, which is really this, how do you actually fully embody the Akashic record so that this just becomes how you operate? It's not something that I have to even think about anymore. It's just, it's all automatic for me now, and so that's what I'm guide people to now, is like the automation of it, the being the fullest embodiment. But I think that I needed to come into that embodiment, and I just invited people on that process with me, and it was very successful because people felt my deep investment in it, because I was doing it right along with them. Ah, sister, I hear you. I love this. So I think that's one of the questions is like, where are you being invited right now? Like, just spiritually, where are you being invited to stretch your edges? Where are you being invited to deepen, to enrich,
Freda 23:42
and it is just a good reminder, even just for the listeners, as to play and when we aren't, when we think we're in the void, when we think we're in the nothingness, and when it doesn't feel as connected or as juicy as you know, life can be, is to play Yeah, that feeling of
Laura 23:59
yeah and trust yourself, yeah, you are moving. You're moving a lot. Oh yeah, you're moving a lot. And so it's, it's knowing that and recognizing that, and also just slowing down the nervous system and saying, Okay, we don't have to be a little impatient, Pete right now. We can just realize that, like there's deep joy in the presence, like you said, in the present moment, and I actually have created a life for myself that gives me this space to just do this for a little bit. Yes, and that's abundance, and that's luxury. I've already chosen it. It's already here.
Freda 24:40
Oh yeah, full stop.
Laura 24:42
Full stop. Done. All right, friends, thank you for joining us for this. Is there anything else you want to add?
Freda 24:50
What a delight, such a pleasure.
Laura 24:53
This is magnificent. Guys. Leave your questions. Leave your insights in the comments. Here we are. Have all the information about both of us. So if you want to connect with either of us and just say, Hey, yo, I connect with you. I want to have a conversation. We're both open to that at all times, and we will both See you very soon in the multiverse. Have a beautiful day.
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