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Laura Mazzotta: Welcome to the freedom frequency episode 7. Today we are talking about freedom in the body. I'm going to start us off today. Since I had sepsis 8 years ago, and did not feel free in my body at all. In fact, I felt very trapped in my body when I couldn't walk for almost 3 years, and I tried. I had every test under the sun, and tried every specialist under the sun and every modality.
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Laura Mazzotta: And I'll tell you. Obviously, the Akashic records were my biggest area of expansion and growth and healing. So this is why I offer this to people today, because I just want to scream it from the rooftops with how medicinal it is. But I think that freedom in the body is something that also comes from coming into a relationship with our bodies. This is something that Anna mentioned briefly on our previous episode. Episode 6. About freeing the mind. If you haven't checked that out, I encourage you to. But
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Laura Mazzotta: yeah, it's it's coming into a conversation with our bodies as if it's like another person we're in relationship with, almost like separating ourselves and being like, hey, what's going on today? Like you know, what do you have to say? Because I promise you, if you sit down and close your eyes and take a breath.
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Laura Mazzotta: and ask your body or tune into your body to see what it's feeling. It will always have something. The body is always speaking, it is literally, never not speaking. That's why, when you feel stuck with like bringing through your intuitive messages, or stuck in the mind, or whatever it's always like.
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Laura Mazzotta: Pause. What is your body saying right now? And if you say I don't know, then sit there longer, I'm going to say, sit there longer. Take a deeper breath, because your body is literally always in. It's always doing something. It's always speaking in one way or another. Maybe your breath is a little more shallow. Maybe your heart is beating a little bit differently, but it's creating this conversation with your body.
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Laura Mazzotta: and that I think it was the was. The 1st step for me was to come into this relationship where I was listening to my body, and I thought I was listening to it before. But I wasn't listening deeply enough
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Laura Mazzotta: for how I was meant right, really connecting an intimate relationship
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Ana Jones: Oh, and also
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Ana Jones: can can you? I know you do. But for people that are listening to this, and you've experienced something. Can you give yourself Grace
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Ana Jones: for what you know now, and you didn't know back then.
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Ana Jones: right? Because I think a lot of times we're like, man. If I would have found this modality sooner if I would have XY. And Z. Sooner. It's like that doesn't exist, because if it if it would have happened, then it would have happened
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Ana Jones: so I think that this is really important. You know, and thank you for bringing this up, Laura, and thank you for starting us off very, very strongly, I think for me it was interesting, because, as you were speaking.
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Ana Jones: I've always had this belief, and I didn't know I had it until actually like recently. But I've never been available for diseases, never.
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Ana Jones: And I didn't know that I had decided this. But from a very early age. I remember you know, when I was a kid, and I was like eating candy and all these things and all these things like, there's always this like
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Ana Jones: talk about like oh, you know your grandfather is diabetic, and your great grandmother from the other side, you know they cut her legs, and this and that, and I was all I remember that when I was a little girl I would say.
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Ana Jones: I'm never going to get diabetes like I'm never going to be sick. I'm never going to have these things like just because they like. Ever since I was little I knew
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Ana Jones: that I was always that I was just not available for this. And and it's so interesting because I was telling a friend earlier. I don't remember when there was this, but I was like, you know, like diseases like cancer. They just can't keep up with me because I'm so great at like cleaning my vessel.
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Ana Jones: I'm so great at like processing. I'm so great at like sitting with myself and just being with the emotions. And and I know that this may be something that feels scary. But for me. I'm like, Okay, it feels scary.
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Ana Jones: Let me see what's behind the fear, because I'm not going to let fear stop me. I'm not going to let fear prevent me from connecting with my body, and if my body is saying something to me, this is the vessel that I have in this lifetime, so I'm going to take care of it. I'm going to honor it. I'm going to nourish it. I'm going to cherish it, and I think that
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Ana Jones: for a long time. I was always expecting my partner to do that for me, or you know somebody else to do that for me, especially when it comes to like the the sexual realm right? It was like, I want you to please me. I want you to give me pleasure. I want you to touch me. I want you to do this, but it's like, well, what about me? Right like? What about me feeling my body and connecting with my body because my body wants to be touched, loved, caressed, everything by me.
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Ana Jones: Everything else is like well, that feels nice. But then why? Why am I avoiding all, all? You know my my connection with myself, and the more I realize this
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Ana Jones: you know of, like why, we're always being told like, well, if you grew up Catholic like me. You know that there are the layers of fucked upness and all that shit. It just adds on to the trauma. Right? So what else? Let's just let's just have some fun with it. Right? But I'm like
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Ana Jones: someone who is connected to their body is very powerful.
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Ana Jones: And what happens when you have a bunch of powerful people living on this planet, and they're not
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Ana Jones: part of the agenda of, you know, like of making other people feel afraid or anxious or insecure about life and about this world, and they're not manipulated. You can't control them. They think for their own. They're very sovereign, they're very, you know, free. So I was like, I think there's something here, and lately I have been noticing that my body is like, touch me.
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Ana Jones: touch me. I want to feel your touch. I want to feel you. I want you to feel me so. I'm being called, as I'm speaking, into this deeper intimacy of who I am while I'm in this vessel.
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Laura Mazzotta: I like that, too, because it makes me think of when you were talking about expectations of a partner. It was also making me think of the expectations that people have of the medical system.
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Laura Mazzotta: and of even their parents, and of the mental health system, you know. I mean, I know, being a therapist for 20 years. There's so many people who are just so codependent on that system and are not really taking that responsibility for themselves to say, yeah, like, I am honoring this vessel. I'm coming into relationship with this aspect of myself.
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Laura Mazzotta: and I think going to the medical system is like, Save me fix me, save me, fix me right, and listen. I'm not saying if you're bleeding out, don't go to the medical system, but I think that there's a lot of dependency that is keeping us from being in a free space with our bodies, and
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Laura Mazzotta: I know that
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Laura Mazzotta: we sometimes need wake up calls to be able to have that recognition. I know that I did, because again I was. I was moving things through. I was taking care of myself. I've always been very introspective, but I also think that there's times that
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Laura Mazzotta: we are just meant to learn deeper lessons.
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Laura Mazzotta: you know, and that every single one of us is here to learn deeper lessons, and that our bodies are here to communicate that to us. And for some of us it's through the experience of trauma and every single one of us has experienced trauma at some level. For some of us. It's through disease for some of us. It's through mental health stuff like everybody's
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Laura Mazzotta: here to learn different lessons. Everybody's soul is here to learn different lessons. And so it's not making one thing wrong. And another thing right here, it's just getting to know your own signature. It's letting your body call to you and ask for what it needs. Like Anna was talking about. And I think that
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Laura Mazzotta: what happens is we end up becoming really attention, seeking outside of ourselves.
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Laura Mazzotta: you know, to get our to allow our bodies to feel better even when we're looking at foods. Now, don't get me wrong, you know, nourishing your body with foods from Mother Earth. Yeah, that's the best thing you can do, obviously. But but I think that you know, indulging yourself a little once in a while is not something that you have to feel guilty about, either, because it's listening to your body. How do I desire to come into sensation in like Anna was saying in this vessel in this lifetime?
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Laura Mazzotta: Right? And I think that it's taking our power back. It's taking our power back like, Anna was saying, like, there's, you know, you're so powerful. If you have a strong relationship with your body, because you know your edges, and you know what you're available for and what you're not available for. And you know when something doesn't feel good in your body, and it's like, Hmm! Just a little bit of a pause.
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Laura Mazzotta: Huh! This isn't feeling good to me right now. I wonder what that's about, or you just don't follow that route for the time being until you do have clarity. And so I think boundaries are a really big issue that need to be addressed and seen and and understood when it comes to having freedom in the body. Because I know this came up for me
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Laura Mazzotta: with a history of sexual abuse. Right? And it can be really, really hard to feel freedom in your body, and really scary, and feeling unsafe to have freedom in your body when you have a history of sexual abuse, or any kind of abuse, physical abuse in particular.
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Laura Mazzotta: and obviously, if there's acute trauma there, seek out a professional to be able to discuss that. But I think that, you know, if you're somebody who's processes to a degree, and you're in a safe space.
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Laura Mazzotta: It's being able to remind yourself of that. It's being able to come into a safe holding environment where you can ease into an intimate relationship with your body, like Anna, was just saying, or coming into space with a safe other, and realizing that the vulnerability that the softest aspects of your body are safe to be seen and received by other people
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Laura Mazzotta: and by yourself, and by the Word, and by the world at large, really to a degree, from an energetic standpoint, at least
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Ana Jones: Yeah, I mean, so much was said. And and I
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Ana Jones: I love it. And I agree with it. And you know
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Ana Jones: we we've talked about like you talked about like the medical system and everything. And just how it really there can be this story that
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Ana Jones: you've you've believed, because that is, you know the that's the marketing that you know the the governments have of like. Don't worry. We're going to take care of you, but it's like that's not really what governments do right? Because if they did that the world would be a completely different place. So I would. I would really ask, you know, whether you're watching or listening. Where in my life am I still
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Ana Jones: giving my power to something outside of me? And it is affecting the way that I feel in my body.
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Ana Jones: because
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Ana Jones: whenever whenever this is the thing right and I mean you're, you're a perfect example of this, right in so many ways like you like. You're like, Oh, my gosh, this and this and this and this. It's like you process through things. And then you're like I got. I don't know how many people sign up for my program. This happened. And like all of these amazing things happen right? So like, you're, I love those stories because I'm like, yeah, when we're when we're feeling something.
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Ana Jones: A lot of us think that accepting how we feel in the present moment is like, no, that's not being positive. You know, I'm manifesting something that's quote unquote bad for me. But it's like, No, actually, when you accept how you're feeling. In the moment like I feel frustrated. I wish I would be, you know, in here by now in life, or you know my partner isn't doing this, or whatever it is right like my boss.
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Ana Jones: whatever it's like, say it out loud.
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Ana Jones: say it to someone that you trust like, own it like this is fucking what is happening in this moment, and you know what tomorrow it can be a completely different sensation. It can be like, transformed, transmuted in a matter of hours. And so I think that that is the power that we have once we actually
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Ana Jones: stop holding so much with our bodies, right? Because when we're not processing emotions, when we're holding on to traumas for lack of a better word. You know, that stays in our body, and it occupies space in the body. And so when the body is capped right. You feel like you're constipated. You feel like you can't breathe, and you feel like your muscles are just like like crumping over here like up to your neck.
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Ana Jones: and you're like it just feels uncomfortable to be in the body. So instead of running away from it.
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Ana Jones: can you just
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Ana Jones: acknowledge what is happening for you in this moment. And it's okay. If it feels scary, it's okay. If it doesn't feel the most comfortable thing at all. Of course it's not comfortable. You're not taught that this is safe. You're not taught that this is okay. You're taught to, you know. Take pills and be happy. 24, 7. That's fucking bullshit.
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Ana Jones: So of course, this is going to be a threat to all of your existence, which is what we talked about in the previous episode, right of like you're you're going against the grain. You're going against your programming. You're going against everything that
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Ana Jones: up to now has been keeping. You quote unquote, safe.
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Ana Jones: So it's okay for it to be scary, and you can still do it. Being scared
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Laura Mazzotta: Absolutely. And you just reminded me of the emotion code because the emotion code is a modality that helps people clear trapped emotions and stuck emotions right? And so when we talk about coming into this space of being present with whatever we're feeling at that time we are being, it's preventive medicine, because we're allowing that
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Laura Mazzotta: energy that's in the form of emotion to not build up within the system and get to this point of being capped
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Laura Mazzotta: right. And it's
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Laura Mazzotta: interesting to look at the layers of energy that we have within our energy field where the densest form is the physical body. Then we have the emotional. Then we have the energetic. Then we have the ethereal right. We have these different layers of the energy field that show you, as you get tuned in to subtle energy and come into really
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Laura Mazzotta: pious relationship, reverent relationship with your energy field. You can feel these things coming even before they turn into emotion. You can feel these things coming even before they turn into the physical. And so the emotional is a great place to start right, to really be in presence with the emotions that are coming forward. And and you may say, Well, I'm somebody who has a lot of emotions like I would just be talking about them all day long.
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Laura Mazzotta: It's like, Well, go back to our previous episode. Episode 6. On freeing the mind about moving the body right, moving the body, writing it down, journaling it, giving it, giving it a space to live if you feel like it. And yeah, there are going to be some things to just kind of
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Laura Mazzotta: flit in and out. That's fine. But
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Laura Mazzotta: if you desire to be more comfortable within your own body, that is a choice that you make just like the Anna saying I chose not to have disease. I'm not available for it. It's wild how, when we bring our conviction to something, it just unfolds that way. It just unfolds that way. And it can be that simple as making a decision and
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Laura Mazzotta: returning to that decision, holding that decision because I've known Anna for years. It's not like she's never had a cold virus
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Laura Mazzotta: right like she's had a cold virus, but she always looks at it as like this is for me. There's something that's clearing. There's something this is telling me right. She trusts that. And that's really what this is about is trusting this relationship with your body, the communication back and forth with your body
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Ana Jones: Yeah. And and thank you for saying that. Because, you know, I recently just it just came to my my awareness that I haven't gotten sick this year.
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Ana Jones: and you know why? Because I decided to slow down even more.
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Ana Jones: And I just I have not gotten sick, I you know. And whenever I feel like allergies are coming in, or whatever. Then I'll just, you know I'll look up for like a multivitamin, or something that just like, you know, helps my my immune system. But I again, it's really that, like.
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Ana Jones: I'm going like fucking all like hacking this shit of the human experience, man, because I'm like I am leveling up in in my body and my mind, and my spirit is fucking, loving it. It's and and this is the thing right like. I was talking to a friend yesterday, and I told her, I am always okay.
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Ana Jones: I'm always good, because when people ask me like, How are you doing. You know I'm like, do I want to talk about like my emotional home with this person, you know, because some people don't get it right like some people. It's not that easy to talk with, and and they want to like, make everything all right, and they want to fix shit. But I'm like, I don't want anything to be fixed right now. Should I just tell them, like where I live, emotionally or like what I'm currently experiencing right now, and so I'll tell them, oh, I'm good. What about you? Because my emotional home is that
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Ana Jones: I'm always good. I'm always okay. I'm always safe. And so I know that this is where my permanent residency is right. This is my permanent residence.
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Ana Jones: But I you know, sadness comes for a visit, you know. Frustration, jealousy, anger all of these things they come and visit, and I don't say no to them ever like I open the door. And I'm just like, yeah, like you're just here for a while. You're not going to stay here, you know. Some sometimes spend the night.
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Ana Jones: but usually it's like an hour visit. You know what I mean. Like the pajama parties are very like they rarely happen. So I think that this is something that, like the more you can normalize this, the more you can just be like, I'm always good, like nothing. Nothing
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Ana Jones: like I've become unshakable in this sense. I can be crying in fetal position. Everything can be falling apart, and I'm like, give it to me, baby. You know what I mean like, I'm just like I'm fucking here for this shit, because I know I'm safe. I know I'm good. I trust myself. I trust my body, and I've built that trust. I have gotten myself there to trust that my body can handle it.
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Laura Mazzotta: I really love that, because again, that's a decision, my body can handle it. And and even if it technically couldn't in this moment, I know I'm always expanding, and that my decision that I can handle it is going to expand me into holding more, you know, and and that that feeling of unshakable is such a cool sensation, and I've had clients reach out to me about this, too, where they're like
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Laura Mazzotta: it's wild. How I'm crying! But I don't feel sad, or I'm tantruming, but I don't feel angry. And I'm like, Yeah, it is. It's wild because you do. You feel that real unshakable core where like, it doesn't mean I don't have emotions that move through me, but I don't have this like intense attachment and physical experience that comes with it because my core is so so known.
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Laura Mazzotta: Right? It's so anchored. And that is, that's so beautiful, because I think that
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Laura Mazzotta: it's something that we can not just look at as this anchor, but also as a really soft place.
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Laura Mazzotta: right? And that's where I think we go through breath work and meditations. And you know Qigong experiences that soften the body right like. Where can you soften into the body? Because ultimately the body is soft.
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Laura Mazzotta: The body is soft, you know our skin is soft, are the insides of our body are soft.
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Laura Mazzotta: And so it's recognizing, like, I am okay, like you said, I am safe. And this analogy you brought through about like having sadness, visit, and anger visit. I love so much because it's like this visual of
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Laura Mazzotta: sitting down and having a cup of tea and bringing out like I don't know. Maybe some scones, maybe some cookies.
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Laura Mazzotta: and it's that cozy kind of experience. It's not like anger comes like, you know the Tasmanian devil or a tornado through the door and breaks everything in your house right? Instead. It's like, yeah. Come in. I have cake. Let's sit down and have cake, you know, and it gets to feel lighter. It doesn't. It gets to feel like a casual visit
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Laura Mazzotta: than this, like intense experience that that throws you. And I honestly think that we get caught up in those intense experiences, whether we're talking about physical or emotional, because there's a part of us that really likes to be a victim. And there's a part of us that
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Laura Mazzotta: really desires to not be in full responsibility. We need a break from being in full responsibility for ourselves and how we feel. And so we just blame somebody else, or we just say, Oh, well, this pissed me off. So I feel this way, you know, and it's like, you know, you get to decide the frequency that you're in and say, Okay, I see that, and I see why that could be agitating to me if I made it mean X if I made it mean y
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Laura Mazzotta: right. But I get to choose to make that mean whatever I want to, or mean nothing, and come right back to my cozy little soft home
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Ana Jones: Yeah. And I think, just even normalizing, you know, when the emotions come like, can you, can you just be like the the translator. You know the the channel for this emotion to do like. Obviously, you know, with with no harm to others or yourself, or whatever, but like sometimes
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Ana Jones: I feel like I just want to like, throw a physical tantrum like I want to get on my back. And I want to just like, you know, like. Put my fists like, tap them on the floor and slap my, you know, slap my feet on the ground. It's like that actually feels really good for the body, and it can be really really good like for your nervous system as well to just like all of these like
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Ana Jones: stomping, and all of these like, and the sensation of like hitting. So even then, I would say, like, still make a big fucking deal out of it. Just do whatever you need to do in that moment, you know, I always tell my boyfriend whenever something comes up. I'm just like
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Ana Jones: I need a hug, or I need XY and Z, when he's not home, or whatever. I'll just hug myself, or I'll do something that like feels like, because I know I like sensation, and I like pressure. So like, get again, get to know the body, get to know your body. So you know what you need, and you know what what the medicine is for you in that moment, because sometimes it's a hug for me. Sometimes I want to scream into a pillow. Sometimes I want to go work
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Ana Jones: out. Sometimes I want to dance. Sometimes I just want to shake. It really just depends like.
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Ana Jones: and it varies right? There's no, there's no like wrong here. It's just like move the fucking energy like we were talking about as well in the previous episode. Like right now, something that if you're viewing this, you're seeing me yawn, and that is just me like moving the energy right like the energy wants to move. There's something that wants to leave my body. I'm not, gonna you know, go like this.
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Ana Jones: you know how some people just like press their lips, and they don't let the yawn leave like let yawns leave like dude. You gotta fart. You gotta fart. You gotta burp. You gotta burp like those are things like. Yes, of course, there are times in places where you may not want to do that or feel comfortable, but for sure, just fucking. Let it go like let it out. It's not meant to stay inside you, and I think that that's what can cause the literal
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Ana Jones: dis ease of the body, because when the body is not in ease, it's in the opposite space dis-ease
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Laura Mazzotta: Right. And I think it's really couched in this concept of trust and trusting that everything that comes forward for us is energy. Because, like you're saying like, who cares like? Don't make a big deal out of it. Choose what medicine your body needs, and I think it's recognizing that those things like a tight hug, like pressure, like breath.
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Laura Mazzotta: like movement, are medicine. And I think that's what's gotten so distorted is that that is actually medicine. And it's preventive medicine, and I know I didn't look at it that way after I had sepsis, and I was going to the to the medical field for all of the answers that were ultimately inside of me, and I think that a lot of that time, a lot of times that happens out of desperation
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Laura Mazzotta: because we aren't in trust that the body will heal itself. We aren't in trust. We're afraid of death right? We're afraid of something happening to us.
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Laura Mazzotta: That's really what it is. It's like, I think I'm gonna fucking die, you know, or I think something's gonna happen to me. And then I'm not gonna be able to do. XY, and Z. And it's like, Okay, well, at the end of the day, if you trust that your body is resilient, you trust that your body has the tools and will tell you, and you trust that everything, including pain that comes into your physical body is an energy that is meant to move through or inform you.
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Laura Mazzotta: Then, yeah, you can let yourself yawn, let yourself burp, let yourself move, let yourself receive the hug and the pressure, and decide and know that that is the medicine that you needed.
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Laura Mazzotta: Right? And and again, if you're somebody who is experiencing chronic illness, I experienced chronic illness for many years. If you're somebody who's experienced chronic chronic mental health stuff going on, or chronic pain in the body. No, it might not happen overnight that you're going to get get relief from these kinds of things. Consistency is something that our body desires because it also wants to feel safe with us.
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Laura Mazzotta: right? It also wants to feel like we are reliable caretakers of our bodies, that we are reliable listeners when it speaks to us, and if we haven't done that for a long while, or we haven't done it at the depth that it desires that we're meant. Then we need some consistency to show that we are. We're here for it.
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Laura Mazzotta: right? We're here for it, and so can it resolve overnight? Yeah, it absolutely. Can miracles happen every damn day deep in your belief in them right, but it can also, you know, be be patient, and I believe that those of us who does take a little longer like it did for me. I was meant to learn more patience with myself
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Laura Mazzotta: at all different layers, including emotional right, and just, being more patient and and soft toward myself, and graceful and understanding
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Ana Jones: Yeah.
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Ana Jones: I mean, and and I think something that I I what I saw in you was like you were devoted to making your way back home to the ease.
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Ana Jones: And I mean I don't know if you, if you all who are watching know Laura's story, but I think you share it on Instagram. Right? You talk about it, and there's like a little, you know, like welcome. I'm Laura Mazada, and she talks about her and what she's been through like, truly, if you're somebody who's watching and you've been experiencing, I tell people you don't have a disease. You're just experiencing disease in the body, currently, right?
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Ana Jones: Really check yourself like, 1st of all, a do I? Am I okay.
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Ana Jones: like, really, like, really, really, really be honest with yourself? Am I
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Ana Jones: getting something out of experiencing this disease. How is this current disease
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Ana Jones: benefiting me in a way that I'm a little bit like shy, or maybe, like I feel a little bit guilty about admitting, because everything is always serving a purpose, everything. There's always like a reason for things right? So if you're open to it, just really ask yourself this 2. It's like, am I willing
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Ana Jones: to detach and to just let go of this convenience that this state of dis-ease has been providing for me, and honestly like, if the answer is no like, I know I know people that will defend the dis-ease that they're experiencing big time, and I'm like Dude.
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Ana Jones: If you don't want to get healthy, there's nothing that I can't do, because I am somebody who believes in miracles like I believe that anyone can be healed can be, you know, like stop experiencing diseases like I dated someone who had you know, a dis. He was go experiencing a disease, and I would always question him. And I would ask him.
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Ana Jones: do you think that if you didn't have where, if you hadn't
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Ana Jones: develop this attachment to this disease that maybe you would have to actually confront things that might make you uncomfortable, and might make you feel like your friends don't like you, and your friends don't approve of you. He was using his his experience to leave parties.
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Ana Jones: get a promotion in their job, because in corporate right, if you have a disability. Then you get offered, like, you know, better experiences according to him. And so it was just like, Wow, like he's getting so many benefits from this, and when he met me he was like, Oh, shit I
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Ana Jones: like. If I leave all of these things. My plan is fucked, you know. I don't know if I'm going to get that promotion. I don't know if I have the balls to tell my friends that I want to leave the party earlier. I don't know if I can handle not.
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Ana Jones: you know, pleasing everyone around me and coming to that reality of like, yeah, like, I don't want to do these things, but I don't have the balls to tell you. Therefore I'm using this disease as an excuse. So I think that if you're if you're here and you've made it all this way. I think that these are questions that are very valid to ask yourself.
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Ana Jones: And I think everything is okay.
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Laura Mazzotta: Absolutely. And I love that you brought this forward so much because I mean people. Pleasing is one of the biggest issues in chronic illness that's like one of the biggest issues in chronic illness is not, you know, you're not. You're either not aware, or you're not willing to set the boundaries that you need to set in order to kind of make your highest and best your 1st choice, knowing that that serves other people right. And I also think that
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Laura Mazzotta: it's funny, because when I 1st had sepsis, I remember a therapist I was seeing at the time asking me, you know, why, like what I was doing this for, basically. And I was pissed.
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Laura Mazzotta: I was pissed because I wasn't on this path yet. I hadn't like awakened. I mean, I've always been spiritual but and and I wasn't because I wasn't willing to see that at that time I wasn't willing to see that I was being a victim that I was signed on to being a victim, that I was actually signed on to having less responsibility for myself at the time, you know, and when I really dialed it down, it became really clear to me that I was looking for approval from
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Laura Mazzotta: my family of origin. I was looking for the love and the attention that I desired, and as soon as I had that recognition I was like Ew. Bye, right like I am no way I do not know right. And these things are subconscious. These are not things that we decide to do right like that we decide to make excuses for. But our subconscious minds do this, and it comes through the body. And it's 1 of the most
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Laura Mazzotta: powerful areas of communication that we have. So these questions that Anna gave you are brilliant because it really gives you this opportunity to say I'm not. I don't want to go through my life making excuses. I don't want to kind of skate under the radar to kind of get where I desire to be. Because can you really sustain that?
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Laura Mazzotta: Is that really a mat? Isn't it exhausting to wear that mask long term right? It's exhausting, and that's going to drain you, anyway. So anyway, I could talk about this for about 800 years. But let's stop here.
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Laura Mazzotta: This was brilliant. Thank you so much, Anna, for all of your wisdom.
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Laura Mazzotta: And we will see you guys on the next episode. If there's any questions or reflections coming forward for you that you want to leave in the comments, please do we love you? And we will see you very soon bye, for now
